Chances and Changes

Changes can be bad and good. You can't avoid changes, they happen, and with them you take that chance of not knowing whether it will be for the best or absolute worst. 

Today I made the decision to change schools.  For the past year I have been at the University of Utah. This school is by far one of the best, and I have learned so much not only in my studies but even more on life. While living on my own in Salt Lake has been great and fun it has also been a hell hole, and I can't wait to temporarily move back to Utah County... So with that, I'm taking the chance and going to UVU for a year to finish my under grade. Yippee?! I don't know we will see

Listing my life

I like lists.

Alot.

Here are some:

Things that make me feel insecure:

• My nose. I hate it.
• My singing voice. 
• My body (sometimes)
• First impressions
• that I'm too quiet
• that I'm too obnoxious
• that I try to hard.
• auditions

Things that have made me smile this week:

• My bed
• Performing
• reading
• Zupas 
• The Oscars.
• Greenroom dance breaks
• Homemade sandwiches
• Making new friends
• Notes left on my car for me
• Flowers
• Maroon 5
• Puppies

Things that have made me sad/angry this week:

• lack of sleep
• lack of money
• bad dreams/nightmares. 
• school
• living up to expectations.
• Missing people.
• Filling up my gas tank

Things I am thinking about this very moment:

• Food
• My stomache, and how it hurts
• My room is a mess.
• I should clean my room.
• Nah I will tomorrow.
• I wish I could get a foot massage right about now.
• I think I still have eyelash glue on my eyelids. 
• I need more friends.
• I really want a milkshake.
• I seem to always be thinking about food.
• I want to go on a trip. Please. Get me out of here. Take me somewhere with no pressures or consequences or obligations
• I just love my comforter. 

The Worst.

So its pretty obvious that I am the worst blogger in the world.  Where to even begin is the question. To start 2013 has brought in a great deal of change, and busyness all in this last month for me.  I'm exploring my options, trying new things, and finding what works best for me. 

One of my new found explorations is theatre. From ballet to musical theatre, who knew you could ever get me into that.  Heres to change, and trying something new!

Come see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang opening February 15th at Hale Center Theatre, its going to be crazy!

Lots of stuff

I'm free!!! I had my last final this morning and submitted my last paper this evening!

Yay! With that relief of stress, I decided to treat my self with this relief of stress.

 Aromatherapy daily deal at Bath and Body. $180 worth of product for $3.30 a piece. Scored!

 Also got myself my own box of doughnuts for free at Krispy Kreme. Scored twice!

P.S. Happy 12/12/12

One day left of school.  

Two more finals.

 Presents wrapped.

Decorations hung.

Officially ready for christmas.

Finals Week!

Theres 2 more weeks left of my first semester of college. That means its finals time. As it comes to a end I've just got to say, these last three months have been one of the hardest times of my life.  College has been rough for me. I was a 18 year old girl thrown off to college, all by myself, where I knew no one, nothing about the U of U campus, started a new job, on my own, in a all new city. Through all my freak outs, lack of sleep, and my world almost coming to a end. These hard times of my life, have really allowed me to grown so much. The transition from high school to college is huge, and the way we graduates are just thrown into the real world is crazy. Props to all college freshman, surviving their first semester, its rough...

With two weeks left, that means I'm down to the wire, and i now have the daunting task of finishing  final exams and papers. Its time for fight or flight.

it's FINALS WEEK!

and this is how I feel on the inside

Courage

Well last weekend I did something brave. I went out of my comfort zone and sang in front a large group of judges at a audition for a musical. If anyone knows me, they know that this is a big fear of mine. I absolutely hate singing in front of others and become extremely nervous when I do. This being the exact reasons I became a dancer and not a singer. With my ten seconds of courage I tried my best and got through the song without freaking out. I must not of sung too horrible because the kind judges so willing cast me in the production. Everyone come see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang  February 15th through April 13th at Hale Centre Theatre in West Valley. The show will be good and you can come make fun of me. Heres to being brave and trying something new.